Happy Birthday baby boy! I cannot understand where the time went. I am so proud of all of us. We survived the first year. I made it through a year of broken sleep, counting hours until the next feeding time, and countless medicine doses. Cody put up with me and my terrible mood swings, late night freak outs and missed sleep. Jackson learned how to be a big brother, to share his toys and share time with mom and dad.
I personally am a little bummed. I feel like I wished away this first year away so I could sleep again, which still isn't happening. When he was 4 months I could not wait until now, so I could sleep and he would be easier to deal with. But I would take it all back now if I could. I would go back to the first night and do it all over again, just to enjoy his newborn days. To not care about how tired I am and how much time and effort I have to put into dealing with MCAD. To watch him grow and not care that I am exhausted and need a shower and need to eat something. But I wont let that stop me from enjoying the rest his childhood has to offer.
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